Sexy Monday - reset.

Welcome to another Sexy Monday post!

You will be pleased to know that I ventured into the gym today for the first time in three weeks. Wow I didn't even realise it was that long. If you read my post about that particular gym trip you'll know that I had a little meltdown and ended the workout early in floods of tears. Yikes.

I concluded that I've been pushing myself too hard and that I need to take it a little easier in order for the gym to be a sustainable habit for me. Mr SSV is a personal trainer but today we just worked out together, so it wasn't as intense, I didn't do as much as I usually do, but I really enjoyed it and would be happy to do a workout at that intensity more than once a week, so my overall work will increase, and I'll enjoy it more: win.

Here's what I did today:

Warm up:

5 minutes on the rowing machine - average pace was 26.3 seconds / 500m

Deadlifts:

40kg - 3 sets of 10

Bench Press:

20kg - FIVE SETS OF TWELVE FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!!! I'd never even done four sets of twelve before today so I'm really, really chuffed with that.

Tricep Pushdowns:

8.75kg - 4 sets of 16 and a 5th set of 20

Stretches

I'm so stoked about my bench press today - honestly - when I first started going to the gym with Mr SSV I was squeezing out maybe four or five reps per set and now five sets of twelve! YES!!

Coming back down to earth now, I also weighed myself for the first time in three weeks, deep breaths:

91.1kg

I'm obviously not happy about this as it's higher than my starting weight when I first started this blog! I'm going to try not to beat myself up too much about it and just think about why this has happened and what I can learn and change going forward:

• I enjoy more easy-going strength sessions so I will start doing these at least twice a week
• yoga and meditation are happening most days and I'm really happy with that
• logging everything on myfitnesspal isn't sustainable 
• I want to refocus my attention onto eating lots of plants 
• I am going to eat out less 
• I am going to eat less takeaway food (vegan does not equal healthy when it comes to takeaways)
• I am going to cook more from scratch

I do realise that quantified goals are better than vague 'less' and 'more' goals, but that's what I'm starting with for now. The whole point is that it's sustainable, this journey is for the rest of my life, I'm not after overnight change, just a gradual change of course towards a healthier future. I turn thirty this year and looking after myself is a big priority.

Wherever you are, I hope you have a wonderful week, I'll see you back here in a few days for Sober Wednesday.

SSV x